Why do these things happen Vlll

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I don't really know if she did or didn't, nothing I could do about it either way. Just thought a lot today. I will continue with what ever DB'ing I can, but I cannot fool myself thinking I can just let go and not care like I have been all week. I do care which way this ends up. Just don't know how to handle it at times. I never knew telling yourself everyday that it is okay and everything is fine could be so taxing.