One Day at a Time II

[sadhearted]

I got a call from my SIL little bit ago. My H's grandma had fluid around her lungs yesterday so they did the procedure to drain it. From what I hear the pain was so bad it knocked her out for 12 hours. Earlier this week she had fluid around her heart which they took care of. She has told them she is done. They are sending her home tomorrow. They will have someone come out to try to help with her pain but it's just a matter of time now.

I tried calling my H because I had seen him earlier and had asked him about her so I know he doesn't know. Well he didn't answer his phone. He hardly ever answers when I call which has only been for his grandma and maybe one other thing. So I ended up leaving him a message. So far I haven't heard back from him. May not. He may just call his SIL to get the info.

Damn this is so hard. I know she's his grandma but I love her and have always thought of her as family. I want to be there for my H because she's the only one in his family he still talks too. I don't think he's going to let me be there though. This is just so hard. Her funeral will probably be up in IL where she's from and where her husband is buried. Which if that's the case I'm not sure how I'm going to arrange that or if I'll be welcome.

And here I was going to come on and post that my H had stopped by after work to see the kids. Hung out for about 20 minutes then left. Not much interaction between us but it was nice to see him playing with the kids. Also sad because he's not here.

Going to have myself a good cry. Just hope to get the kids to bed before I do.