I I have changed my name

[Iamworththetime]

Believe me when I say that I'm not chaing, begging, pleading, crying , or anything like that, I haven't done that since the bomb dropped on 06/13. I have been upbeat and friendly with her at all times, never have I gotten angry with her because I am infact NOT angry at her, hurt yes, angry no. I'm more worried about her than anything, I believe that she is going through a MLC right now and this needs to run its course, but I have to protect myself also. She has a lot of anger at me, but not only me, her parents too, she has issues with them trying to control her all of her life. On the advice of my attny I put in my response to her petition for divorce that I would be willing to pay for a private counselor for her, not a marriage couselor, but her own couselor, I think she needs to talk to someone, and I know she feels this too because she has stated as much and did indeed go to a counselor one tiome before I mucked that up in my pre-dbing days. One day she will do what you did and wake up and say "WTF did I do?" I just hope I'm still available when she does that. I'm not going to get in a serious relationship after the D for at least 1-2 years because I want to fix whats wrong with me before I even THINk about that, this is my 2nd marriage and if I ever get married again to someone other than her, then I do NOT want to be a 3 time loser.