Yeah, he said he didn't want me to know because he doesn't want me "spying" on him. I told him that at this point we would lose money on the house. We have only been in it a little over a year. I couldn't even afford the closing costs right now, much less realtor fees. When I told him that, he told me he would take out a loan from air force aid to cover all extra costs himself and I wouldn't have to worry about it at all. He just wants it over.
I was here for 7 months without him when he was in Iraq and so he knows I can physically do everything that needs to be done (mow the lawn, work on the house, etc.). I don't NEED him, I just WANT him. I wonder sometimes if I am too independent for him. He has never really had to take care of me. I would never have bought this house on my own, he pushed for it, and now I am stuck with it. Selling would make it feel like the end for us, but I don't want to be stuck wondering how I am going to pay my bills.
I do have a therapist and she is really great. He has said that he will continue to go to the counseling with me. She usually has a weekly appointment with him and then one with the both of us. She says he is depressed and looking for a purpose in life.
All of our money is still together, so he is helping out. I do have my own savings account. Everyone keeps warning me about him taking all our money, but I really don't think he would do that.
