Moving on........

[still.struggling]

I haven't posted anything in awhile because there hasn't been anything to post. My life is just the same. I am married but live apart. We are somewhat friends and I can deal with that. It takes time to find each other again. Maybe one day my H will open his heart to me again but for now he has a wall up.

I won't give up on him or our marriage. I will fight til the end.

I am however going to leave the boards. I know I have said it in the past but never really left. This time, I have to. Today at 5:00 I will check on here one last time. I wish everyone the best. This is just something I feel I need to do to be able to heal and start to live life again.

If anyone wants to get in touch with me, they can look me up on my myspace.

[NMHurting]

Keep in touch on myspace. If you even need a venting post, I'm there for ya.

[FaithLOVEHope]

I am very saddend to hear this. I was just thinking of you this morning. Me for one am not good at all with myspace but I will defintely try so I can keep in touch with you. I wish you the best and I know life will be great. Please keep in touch with me.

[AmyC]

Keep in touch, girl.

I understand exactly where you're coming from.

[mkultra]

Hopefully a PM will be OK if we need any advice or comments! Take care! Cute pic on myspace.

[*KS*Chick*]

I'm jumping on this bandwagon as well...

[AmyC]

You know girls, you don't have to live and die by the boards anymore but remember how it was when we all first found this place? How we soaked up every word like sponges? It is where we found our hope and the people here helped us.

Now, we're old timers.
But new people show up here everyday, looking for the exact same things we all looked for, and received a hundred-fold.

I think it's fine to leave the boards and I have wanted to myself..thinking it is this place that perpetuates the "limbo". It is not.

Limbo is a state of mind.
Not a place you've been left at.
T2 is ready to move out of limbo, because SHE controls the direction in which her life in moving.
KS thinks she is defeated, so off she goes.
Those are my thoughts, anyway.

I'm staying.
Because I've gotten too much from these boards over the past 18 months to just take it all and walk away.

"To whom much is given, much is required".

I won't stand vigil here, though, as I have before.

But I will be here to help newcomers, because so many helped me.

I myself don't feel a need to leave.

But I understand that ones that do.

[*KS*Chick*]

I'm not leaving because I feel defeated. I just really don't have anything to offer anymore. I am numb. I am not in a place to help anyone.