thanks. okay, here is where I get confused. I thought the db book meant making it clear that I was GAl and all that, but also making it clear that I do want the M to work.
I do see that it seems to be worsening his behavior, at least as of this week. prior to that, he seemed to be on the same page as me. guessing that it has to do with the fact that he has recommitted to her and has weekend plans with her (total guesses, gut instincts here, but lets just say my gut has been right 9x out of 10 since the affair came out).
he still has yet to ask for a D...although I think its coming. so what do I do when he says stuff like, "where is your head at about us?" I thought telling him, like I did the other day, that I want our M to work, but I can't let it stop me from being me/living my life/etc was what I was supposed to be doing. and honestly, although I don't want this weird doppleganger that he has been showing me, I do want my M to work out...I want my H back, the man I know and love. the man that I see interact with every other person except for me right now.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
