update on today. I was a mess this morning...still upset from last night, got very little sleep (my own fault, finished harry potter, so not stress related). he didn't call to talk to the kids...bad sign. I was good, though, I didn't call him. that is big for me. took the kids to swim, hung out after at the little pool with my friend and her kids, had a nice time, then began wondering if I should call him and wish him luck on the interview.

got home, still wondering, when he called (well, he had called while I was gone, I called back). I had barely said hello when he said he was sorry about not calling, he'd had an early conference call. I didn't say anything, really, just said I had figured he was busy, no big deal. he asked how S5 was today in general and how he was at swim, and I told him he was good, much better, we had had a little talk and he was more himself today. I also told him I talked to my friend last night who recommended play therapy for him, or at least to get some names and have them ready and gave me some things to look for/log. She was concerned H would fight me on it, I didn't think he would, and he didn't. He sounded good about it. and said he was so sorry it was affecting S5. I just said, yeah. what else is there to say? I want to go off on him about being a self-centered ass, but not really db, is it?

anyway, it was a good conversation, I wished him, luck, even made him laugh a few times about something or other. so that was nice. again, doesn't change anything, maybe its even making it easier for him to leave, but at least things weren't horrible between us. and I think I did good, db wise, right? (god, I hate that I need so much affirmation, but I do...did I do okay?)

he should be in the interview now, and he to pick up the kids in a couple of hours. wish me luck.


M-41
H-38
M-10 years, T-14 years
Bomb-PA 3/19/07
Separated-6/7/07
Piecing/h back home 5/08
S-6
S-4
D-4

"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"

-Mary Anne Radmacher