Don't be so self-deprecating Whapu--your perspective is entirely valid and I really appreciate it, because I think you're right on the money.
I frequently find myself jumping from the worst-case-scenario to the best, forgetting that quite often the truth lies in the middle. I will take that and run with it today, and that brightens things a lot for me, because I was a little stuck in the quagmire of the sitch this morning.
I think I need to be a little less afraid of just asking H outright when I notice myself assuming things. My fears come from two different angles: 1-I think I'm still a little bit in the DBing mode of avoid R talk and 2-I am afraid he'll lie to me. Neither fear will protect me from reality, and both are likely to impede progress.
Yes, I dislike uncertainty in general, but I do realize that with the gift of life comes uncertainty. You're right as well in the idea that many of my most precious blessings have come in ways I least expected.
I truly do want to give H the chance to succeed. For both of us.
