I agree...I lost a piece of myself over the years as well. I was so busy doing what I thought H wanted me to do so he would be happy and working hard so we could have a good life. H grew up in a big family and never really had much growing up. Since we've been together, we've never really went without. He wanted something...he could buy it.
H was one of the hardest working men I know. We worked hard for the last seven years of our lives, and now none of it really matters. We built our place from the ground up...the barns, the house, the fences...everything and most of it side by side through blood, sweat, and tears and he is throwing it all away and I still don't know why...I think that it is own foolish pride. I don't even think it's about OW but himself...he can't face himself so he turned into someone else...someone I don't know. It's very sad.
Out of guilt and the little bit of heart that he has left, so far he is being generous in the divorce. Hopefully, I will get to keep the house. God knows I probably won't end up staying here...this was supposed to be H's and my home forever. I look around and there are memories everywhere.
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Heck if you have horses on your land my D5 would think your pretty awesome chick too and she has never communicated with you.
I do have horses...too bad men don't think they are as cool as young girls...I would be in good shape. My H grew up around horses...I didn't, but I've grown to love them over the years, so now I am essentially living my H's life without him...its not mine. I don't know where I would be if I didn't marry H, but I doubt it would be on a horse farm. We'll see how things turn out...only God knows.
Take care. You are a great guy and you will make some woman very happy...things are going to get better.
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