Not so fast!

[indybyathread]

Oh Boy! It is so hard to stay cool when things start turning your way. Its also so CONFUSING! Tonight was his night with the kids. I accepted his invitation to join them for dinner. While he cooked, I got some work done in my room and in the garage. I had dinner with them and then went back to work. About a half hour before his agreed upon time to leave (he is supposed to be with them until 10:00) he essentially came to me and invited me to chat.

We stood in the kitchen and talked about a bunch of nothing. I kept thinking he wanted to tell me something but he was just rambling about nothing, like he was trying to think of anything to keep the conversation going. We got on the subject of his still unsuccessful attempt to get a second job (what he needs to be able to afford his own appartment). I was careful to say very little but not to sound disinterested. I want to be supportive but I also want to say, you don't need a second job, idiot! You need to come home.

Anyway, we talked a bit longer and then I said I was beat and should get to bed. He has started hugging me goodbye whenever he leaves. This time he gave me a very quick peck on the lips! I was shocked and excited at the same time but I acted like it was business as usual. After he left I got a text asking if I wanted to play a rematch Friday of a game we started playing shortly before he left home. I replied to say he was on.

That is two clear invitations in one night to spend time with him, not as a family, just the two of us. And a kiss too! I'm not sure how to navigate this! I know that I have to fight my urge to push for more. If I let him know how excited I am, he will assure me that I am reading too much into friendly gestures and run screaming for the hills. But I know this is more than just a gesture. I think he misses me!

Some advice on how to move forward from here would be most welcome. I'm a little freaked out!