I have heard that line "once a cheater, always a cheater" all of my life. And I partially believe it too. But there are other things in my life I've changed permanently for the better so I don't know about that advice. But yes, I'm also definitely considering that even if this wasn't cheating, it's already gone way too far, and just one slipup could've made it the exact same experience I've been through before. And HOW COULD SHE?
So that makes me want to say we should forget it and not work out anything. But wow. Where do you find totally perfect people to date? Everybody makes mistakes. Everybody has negative points. This is somebody that has helped me out of so many bad times. She's shown me in the past that she truly and ginuwinely cared for the real me. We haven't really even known each other in any periods of us both having good times (with the exception of our relationship; I'm talking about no good external factors surrounding the relationship). What I mean is the stress of me losing large businesses to foreclosure, personal bankruptcy, almost house foreclosure, tons of financial difficulties related to my startup of a failing business, days of electricity being shutoff. My life has been hard. The kinds of stresses that I have been through would cause strain on even the most perfect relationship. It's not really better yet. I'm working on this too.
I didn't want to be involved in a relationship while I was starting a business. I knew it would be a distraction and I stayed far away from dating for about 5 years. We were neighbors, then friends, and then she persued me. A beautiful love letter that said that all she wanted was to be loved by me.
If I knew for a fact she would cheat in the future, decsions would be a lot easier, but as much as I hate to type it, I'm not even saying then it's black or white. I don't know what I'm even thinking to type that way but it's true.
