This morning after I posted I went to groc store for coffee, mostly for my wife, she didn't ask me to. I poored my cup and headed to work. Got in the pickup and cell phone rings. w: I'm sorry, me: for what, w: happy b-day, me: thanks.
You don't know how badly I want to hear her say I'm sorry but for other reasons. Well ok mabe you do.
Went to work for 1.5 hrs, technition didn't get part. So I headed for home. I dont feel like I can even walk in un anounced any more, so I called her to tell her I was coming home. So she can let om know not to call or get off the computer or web cam. After I thought about it I will come home in the future unanounced. Only thing is this cuts into om time and that makes her want me out of the house more(that hasnt been brought up since argument).
I feel like i'm on pins and needles, I want her to do what she is going to do and get it overwith. I will continue to do my thing reguardless. She is going to see sh#t head(om) 8/2 thru 8/7.
Remember, it's your house, too. No need to walk on pins and needles. Let HER walk on pins and needles. She's the one having the affair.
Your happiness, GAL activities, and increasing confidence will unsettle/unbalance her.
Sometimes it's easy to for WAS to constantly unbalance us, since they have no conscience. They can sit there in front of you and talk/text to their lovers.
If anything...you need to have the "impression" of strength through this whole thing. Don't let her crap bother you....'cause in the end....she's the one who has to deal with her decision.
I definitley agree about them not having a conscience. It seems like i feel more guilty about the sitch than H does. He can sit there smiling, and laughing, while watching TV, looking so content. I dont know how people can be like that.
Hello, As of right now I can feel the tension building because she will be going soon to meet him (8/2 thru 8/7). Not her tension, mine. I never thought she would do something like this. I think I'm doing a good job 'acting' normal around her. No R talk. She posted that her daycare will be closed these days. She hasnt told me what she is telling the kids this time. last time (when she couldnt go) she told them is was going to be with an old college girl friend. I feel like if I done ask then some one will ask me and I wont know what to say. I don't want to be the one to expose her affair. I also dont want to help her hide it.
Also, I think she may be on pins and needles. I went in to shower this morning and she was on her messenger talking to someone. After I showered I peeked through the door jamb(small crack) and saw her still typing on it. I unlocked the door and came out and she was instantly looking at clothing. hmm?
I am loosing respect for her. And in the same breath I LOVE HER! WTF is a matter with me!
She is going to see om, she told me when she bought airline ticket. I havent heard her say it to anyone else and i just havn't asked.
went home for supper. d16 was watching tv and not sure where s7 is at, or where w is. w was on our bed on the phone i looked in and saw her and walked away. was leaving for work and s7 got dropped off from cousins house, said good night and went back to work. these work hours this week suck. I wish I could gal all the time and not work.
FA, first, the lawyer said that she cant kick me out unless abusive or danger to someone. I think that would apply to her also.
second, I cheated on her first (its in my first post). I will never cheat on anyone ever again. And I am absolutly ashamed of what I have done. the past 3 yrs I thought things where ok not great just ok. At that point I should have stepped up and done something. I let us grow apart by not doing the things she needed. Witch were suprises, different complements, out of the box stuff. Routines bad. Our communication suffered and its all down hill after that.
With all that said I Love My Wife! I would like the oppertunity to show her the old me with the new attitude.
I feel that since I have cheated that people wont respect me or offer help.
