I can refrain from texting and calling. Its hard, but I know I can. I will try to stop looking...I haven't looked today. It really does feel like he is someone that I want to date who doesn't want to date me. He asked if I had thought about putting the house up for sale. I just don't know if he will see the light before it is too late. He told me he loves me and he just doesn't want to be married.
If I didn't mention it before, he is in the Air Force. In order for us to get married, I had to quit my job and move across the country. He had no choice right? Otherwise it was just keep waiting, at the time we thought he was going to make a career out of it. We have been through two tours in Iraq (only one since marriage, he was gone 7 months and got back in December) and a stint in Japan. He says he has felt this way since he got back. I never saw it, there were no signs...even knowing what I know now I can't look back and see any signs. A part of me thinks while he was gone he began to think about how great it was going to be when he got back. And then he got back and it was the same old stuff...bills, responsibilities. We had fun, but I feel like he had unrealistic expectations.
What do I do if he is moving out and tells me that there is nothing we can do. Just let him go? I know I can't make him stay, but I am not sure that we can emotionally and financially survive a separation. I am not ready to accept divorce.
