One day at a time

[sadhearted]

Yeah I'll take them.

No he hasn't. The only thing that has ever been said was the day after he left. He told me he wasn't going to rush to file papers unless I wanted him too. Otherwise he was going to drag his feet.

[789]

He said he was going to drag his feet?

[sadhearted]

Yep. Not sure if that's good or bad. I mean in doing so maybe he's not sure?? and I have time to try to turn him around. Or is he for whatever reason prolonging it? Don't know why though.

[789]

Well if he was over it I think he would file. He hasn't so maybe he has no real idea, that is where the time and space for him comes into play. I know for myself if this was turned around I would file as soon as I knew I was done. Easier to get on with life. So give that time and space.

[sadhearted]

Yeah that's what I like to believe. I mean why drag your feet if your done? Doesn't make sense but there's a lot that doesn't make sense to me. I've got nothing but time and space to give.

It's just hard sometimes to not get caught up in his negativity. Today though it seems so far nothing is phasing me. I'm just sad in general. I'd just lay down and turn the world off but I can't do that with kids around. So I'll keep trudging along. Minute by minute if need be.

[789]

don't think of it as minute to minute, makes a day real long. Kind of like watching water boil.

[sadhearted]

LOL yeah I hear that. Well I put my headphones on again so maybe jamming to some music will help.

[789]

LOL yeah I hear that. Well I put my headphones on again so maybe jamming to some music will help.

You better not be listening to Air Supply or something like that, or we will unplug you.

[sadhearted]

Well I'd tell you what it was but now I don't remember.

I feel like I could lay down and just sleep til tomorrow.

You know my H is still emailing me. We've moved off his grandma and last night and now to his new job. But keep in mind he's not supposed to be leaning on me and I'm not supposed to be there for him. His words. Maybe I shouldn't be so available to him. From the sounds of it he's having a rough first week.

[789]

That could go two ways, being there for him shows that you do care, also shows he cares in his way also. Not being available could have the opposite effect. Tough one, might just have to go on your feelings with which way you want to go about it.