Living with my WAW 3

[SuperDad]

Dave,

One foot in front of the other thats the only way you will get there , If in fact one day you find she is not following your lead then it will be time to re assess your sitch.

I agree with this and this is what is making me think that she is really gone. When we talk on the phone, she is also completely detached, just talk about business, etc. We will spend the next 2 weeks mostly apart during my vacation time. Me with the kids the whole time and her with her parents/siblings/OM?. When we discuss the logistics, it is just like we are talking about any other daily business.

Maybe this is just another phase, but I am struggling to find any baby steps. I just see status quo. I really need to finish restating my goals and I know that after 15 years of mistakes/lack of true intimacy, I cannot expect things to change overnight!

Since there is nothing I can do about it, I will continue on my path and trying to forge it into a path with heart.

On the upside, I met an old family friend who lives here in Germany last night for dinner. He lost his wife (depression/health issues) when she was less than 60. Now 10 years after she died he is happy and healthy. At 72 he still swims 1500 m on a regular basis, scuba dives, etc. Also has a very sweet/younger girlfriend. There is a lesson here for us all as well! PMA/patience is what it takes to handle all that life throws at us...this sitch is no different than many others that we will face in life.

SD