Mark...she isn't in love with OM...I can almost promise you that...she just "thinks" she is...
Always leave the door open for her to join you...make it easy..."we're doing such and such...your welcome to join us if your not busy"
Tiredandlost...I am sorry you are dealing with this...I was where you are before and handled it all wrong...that was about 4 years before my H really went off of his rocker into full blown MLC (I look back and think that was a pre-MLC)
I also know right now that the pain you feel does make it impossible to even visualize forgiveness and a normal life with H again...I know because I felt this same way...but like you I desperately wanted to save my family...and at some point I realized that H needed saving...but on his time...I am glad I could find that compassion for him...I am glad that I couldn't really hate him (like I so many times wanted to)...I am glad that my anger didn't hold me down...and I was able to let all those aweful things go...
I hope this can encourage you to keep going...but your the only one who can make that decission...you have been cheated (if only online)...H is being a jerk...but really look beyond that and see if you can find the trigger...see if you can understand what is causing him to become this alien that you don't want...I wanted my H...but I didn't want who he was during his MLC...I can say that it does pass for most...but it does take time...a lot of it...and it isn't an easy journey at all...I have gotten more sensitive...but also a bit tougher in all of this...I have become a better person...and now H has too...I think we are going to make it after all...
