again, thanks for all of the support. will hold steady and no baseball bats. although maybe a nerf one? or a whiffle one? satisfying, but no real damage. hmmm...tempting. I don't know if I could do this without you all. and 25yearsmic, again, its nice to hear from someone who has has btdt and has been able to make a go of it. and omg, college, I'm having enough trouble with kindergarten this year.
I also had a good long talk with my friend last night, too. its funny, so much about this book is stuff she's been telling me to do since day 1. She's happy I'm finally at a place that I can be consistent about it.
still, its hard. I know I keep saying that, but it is. I love playing games, but not this kind. I hate relationship games, and this smacks of it. but I suppose its the only thing i have left.
he just called to talk to the kids, later than normal. it was rather chaotic here, kids whining/yammering on in the background, so no real chance to gauge his mood at all. he still sounds stiff. asked me if I had plans to go somewhere when he comes over today, I told him yes, then he asked how late I would be. he has to take his boss and one of the guys who works for him to dinner tonight, so wants to take off early (usually wants to put the kids to bed). I told him no problem. honestly, it isn't, and since he's taking the kids tomorrow for a couple of days, I'm happy to have a little more time with the kids. I didn't really have anyplace to go, other than the gym, was just going to go for a drive or something anyway. so will go to the gym while he spends time with them. will try to remain upbeat, etc., when I do see him.
any other advice?
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"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
