H coming today, what do I do when he asks how I am

[25yearsmlc]

Morgan,

I just flew back in today and am catching up on the threads. You did GREAT with that visit, ...and I know exactly what you mean about wondering wth happened?? I just went up and looked at the place WE have up in Alaska to measure and plan the move there, and several times found myself either smiling and saying, "well, well, well, good thing I hung in there"....followed by "wth am I doing up here and what happened to HIM and is he going to go bonkers on me again?"

I have Much less fear and much more confidence that I truly will be alright no matter what AND that it would be a terrible loss to HIM if he were to be goofy again. So you know, the h's without their kids are not nearly as happy and carefree as we imagine them to be. My h cannot wait to be a dad again, even if only to our one remaining child at home. He was lonely alright and though his choices hurt the heck out of me, I also know that I more or less..."prevailed" if you kwim. I'm okay and my kids and I are at peace and h is 3000 miles away again (although on the phone with d10 at the moment) and the biggest stressor to me at this point is more about my d18 going off to college, along with all the rest of the changes coming. Regardless of our h's, our kids do grow up. Our time as a one unit family of 5 was only 7 YEARS!! OMG, what a short time. Hopefully it won't be too late for the dads to make up for some of the lost time with our young ones.
j-