Sorry to hear about the dog bite, but I love the idea of biting him back. Actually, the dog biscuits are probably a better tack, but not nearly as funny.
The stop sign is just that, a coping technique. Sometimes if I can quiet my mind and stop it from racing (I know you are way too familiar with that one), I surprise myself with what I can come up with. I don't see it as pushing back the memories and feelings as much as giving yourself some breathing room. Room to think and find other ways of dealing with all of this.
I have another question for you regarding a new life: IF you decide to go in that direction how long do you think it will be before you are ready for a new R? Rule of thunb that I keep hearing (and I think sounds fairly realistic) is a month for every year of marriage. I don't know if ultimately a new R is what you're after, and if I am wrong here my most profound apologies. Would you want another R? What is it that would give your life meaning? How and where do you see yourself in a year, 2 years etc?
I know, I'm the why child. I think alot about such things and they help give me direction. It's still unbelievably hard though. If you ever need to talk, I'm here for you.
