Posted this earlier under a new topic, "The Aftermath"
My W moved out over the last two days. Took her clothes, furniture and kitchenware...left behind every single little thing that reminded her of me including rugs, towels, momentos, desk, wedding album, wedding dress and clothes I recently bought for her. Any and every reminder of our life together has been left with me, even her alarm clock! She says they are just material things, but the weird thing is that she used to be so consumed by our knick knacks and these "things" we were accumalting as we saved to buy our first house. I have been bawling my eyes out for over 4 weeks now, and nothing has hurt this bad until the past few days. I've lost almost 20 lbs in two weeks. She called this morning to say that she was sorry she has been so mean the past few weeks and that she truly hopes we can have a real friendship. From what she says she simply lost the motivation to keep working through our problems-which in her mind is that we are just two different people who can't work together, though I see it more as a communication during conflict issue that can be worked through, though we haven't had the tools to do it (until I found DR anyways...:)). Otherwise our R/M is filled with so many common interests, friends and passions (art, music, literature)and our support of each other has been the best in both of our lives. I think she is just blinded by the communication issue and always has been-so do many of our friends, and even strangers who have offered counsel) She didn't mention filing or anything, so I didn't either. It felt good to speak with her on a calmer basis and she did at least apologize for taking this route although she says she still believes it was the right choice (for her). When I asked her if she thought she might be able to find her way back to me at some point, she said "maybe, though so much trust would have to be rebuilt".She said she will always love me and I told her the same, so....
Is this progress that could lead to an opportunity to suggest counseling or Retrouvaille? Is she letting me down easy or perhaps admitting she wishes there was a way to work through this? She had to let me go at this point in our conversation as she was at work, though I think she may have just been growing uncomfortable with the topic. My body is a wreck. My friends are sick of me talking about our probs. Our one year anniversary is coming up in two months and dangit, I can't accept that we couldn't even make it a year (neither di her last M).
