Hmmm, he always says he has no idea how to be married. I will have to go read that thread. He does love me and respects me. He treats me as an equal. We're not one of those couples that always fight, have power struggles, etc. We have a pretty equal distribution of work in our home, make about the same money, have respect for each other's career, talents, etc. Hmmm, I gotta go read that thread.
As for me initiating, etc. The lack of touching, definitely not my persona. I am one of those people who like to hold hands, hug all my friends, am rather touchy feely really. I mean I still hug him and get kisses but passionate kisses, well, they do take two imho. So, I guess I am mirroring his behavior.
Yes, T-level was checked. He was low. He tried it for two months and stopped. Right now he is trying meds for Adult ADD and it seems to be helping his energy and focus however he puts it all into his job.
OK, I've been sort of where he is. My testosterone is normal, as far as I know, but I've been on ADD meds for a couple of years now, and wish I had started them as a teenager at the latest. Anyway, I was constantly afraid that I was going to end up losing my job because I knew how much time slipped away from me, and I tried to grab every minute I could to "make up for it". When I got hold of ADD meds, my highest priority for a good while was catching up with work, because again, I was afraid of losing my job and being a failure and letting everyone down. I was also rather ashamed of the amount of time I'd wasted and the financial risk I'd placed my family in and I mostly wanted to hide from them and from myself, which made it difficult to be present or intimate with Mrs. Eddie, and made me dread getting close enough to her for her to really know me. I ended up neglecting her emotionally and sexually.
a fine and enviable madness, this delusion that all questions have answers, and nothing is beyond the reach of a strong left arm.
