Hello. I have some catching up to do now, I have been busy with GAL in general and I see that your sitch is still the same - my heart goes out to you.
First, I wanted to say I am finding that I am close to being "done". I am sick of my W, and we have been living apart since June now. She has no OM that I know of, or is pursuing one, but she made it clear that she is not ever coming back home nor coming back to me. So with that, I am moving on.
I just made up my mind mentally that my M is over, and I am working on the spiritual/emotional part. I have to let her go completely, which is what a lot of people here just need to do, but acceptance of this fact needs to happen first. My M was not healthy, nor will it ever be the way things are right now. But I wanted to share that I am more at peace now than I ever was in my R and M to my W.
I got both of my kids saying that I need to simply move on and find someone new. My own daughter out of the blue said to me to marry someone else, and she still says that. How amazing is that? My own kids!!!! I am just floored, and today was a major change for me.
I just pray that you may find peace through all this. I know how hard it is.
~Sol
~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Single Dad, and luvin it! ~ Happiness is a state of mind ~