Well, I'm afraid I don't have good things to post.
My H tells me that he "can't do it". Yes, I believe it when he says how sorry he is for his very poor choices. I think he came out of replay and regretted. But he cannot undo his mistakes and he does not want to put in the effort it would take to work through all of this together, so therefore he is letting me know that he "can't do it".
I didn't think I would be so sad about it, but of course I am. I thought that his recent efforts to communicate so much with me meant something but I guess he was just touching base with me. I think he longs for what once was years ago.
I am very disappointed in him. And I am very sad that he gave up.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.