I liked to keep the house tidy, this used to stress H out (another part of my "regimenting" his life, you see")
So ... I dropped the housework for ages ... not difficult ... but now it's back.
I'm keeping an eye on my weight I'm not smoking I'm making sure the house is clean, the bills are paid etc
I don't see anything wrong with me living my life like that. So I'm going to start my life again. H will stay with me or he won't. I'll still be living my life (btw, he is very much WITH me!!). I'm controlling what I can, dropping the rest. Sometimes I have to put some control over the joint account. It affects me. H used to see this as me getting in his way ... he has finally realised I'm only saying "maybe we shouldn't spend £4,000 on more hi-fi equipment when we have £6,000 on a credit card. Once upon a time this piece of perfect common sense would be me ruining H's life, bringing him down.
It's amazing what MLC'ers will think
But the bad times are over ... best not to dwell on them, only learn from them. I see H changing now, it's good. He's said it himself, when we discussed me losing weight, he said "I'm in a much better place now to be able to deal with it if you wanted to go on a diet". Fact is, I don't want to diet, just make small changes and gradually lose a little at a time.
But the alien that invaded my H has now left ... time to let in this new and improved H. My old M is dead, long live my new M!!
Bomb (ILYBINILWY, don't want to be married)Sept05 Seperated Sept/Oct 05 Oct 06 - H recomitted July 11 - I am now a WAW.
