I'm sorry to hear/read the struggle you've been dealing with. I'm focused on being happy, loving and uber-positive. I have no choice.
I just received a call from D6 telling me about her day at the pool with mom..., followed again by a request not to breakup with mom, try really hard dad to not be mean so you don't have to breakup.
I'm battling demons of hate right now. Intense rage. Bitterness. I wish there was a way to tell my wife, the next time you tell them I was mean I will let them know that mommy says I hate you to daddy, mommy says I don't want to be with you, around you or anywhere that you are, to daddy. Kids, is that a nice thing to say to daddy? Now who is the meanest of them all kids?
I would never do that, but the anger that boils up when I think about my D6 believing that all that needs to happen is for dad to not be mean really pushes a lot of buttons right now. And to realize that it will be years before she will learn the totality of events that led us down this path, as Sven has advised numerous times, patience. Even in this, patience is my ally.
