Wow what a drastic response to one day off your meds. I have been off my celexa before when I could not afford it for a week or so and never had that type of response. H only took his for about 6 weeks in a year total. The one he is on will not help control his bi-polar without the other two. They all work in combination some how. But he is not trying to control his bi-polar only his stamina issues.
(BTW, you may have mentioned it last year, but how'd he end up with the kids?)
At the time it was a matter of I did not have the means to support them nor a place for them even myself at the time. But due to the physical abuse issues had to remove myself from this household.
Never was it my intent to leave them with him for good. Through the summer months I had the two younger ones with me a good bit. Once school started it was harder because I was in a temp living arrangement at my daughters and did not want to move them from there school.
S16 at the time had issues with me. He was not comming with me and leaving his dad alone. After I was not there to buffer his dads behavior and he saw his dad as this weak person (loser is his term) who wallowed in self pity and alcohol it changed S16s perspective of me. And allowed him to see all that I had dealt with on his/their behalf. We now have a awesome relationship. And if I were to walk tomorrow he would be right by my side.
This last year has brought alot of good to me. I learned I can do what ever I need to and I will be alright. I have learned to stop empowering H to inspire fear to control me. He may be this big and bad person physically but he is this small person mentally and understanding that allows me to understand why he feels a need to bully people through physical threats. It has also made me see he is aware that his mental capacity lacks and is why he uses hypocrispy along with blaming of others for his actions or failures to make himself feel better then others. And that he is not gonna work on his issues as long as he has the easy button of blaming everyone else and there is a scapegoat behind every bush in life.This is all who he is and I have just accepted that for what it is.
