He has always been like this. For 20 years I was/am always the one initiating LM and any PDA. No, he is not having an affair if that is what you are asking. His upbringing was very strict Catholic, no PDA's in front of him or toward him.
How open is he emotionally? Well, according to our counselor he is one of the most emotionally available men she's ever met. However, he definitely is not a woman! ;-)
Am I willing to take that chance? That is the million dollar question. I am very afraid to lose a good thing but I can't help wondering if there is something/someone better out there. Someone as good as my H who likes touch and wants more physical closeness. Yes, it is a huge gamble.
My boredom is perhaps part mid-life crisis, part surviving a serious accident. I realize this is it--you get one shot at this make it count. And that causes me to look at all aspects of my life and ask, "is this good enough?" My boredom is also part of being a healthy 40-ish woman who has a healthy sex drive and a desire for physical touch/affection.
Do I tell him physically? Hard to tell someone physically when you don't touch them. Do we talk about it? We dance around it mostly. Yes, I should be more direct but finding the time when he isn't tired or stressed is very hard. His job really does get all of him and I am left with the scraps. And yes, he knows that this makes me unhappy.
