Ok, so H used to write me these beautiful poems and letters. I found them a couple of weeks ago...they were so hard to read...so hard to understand where that went. Well, I understand feelings come and go, H just wasn't commited to M. He didn't want to try and get those feelings back. He didn't realize M was work. He didn't realize in all R, we have to work on keeping feelings alive. He said he felt like he already worked and couldn't do it anymore. How ironic that he just couldn't do it anymore when OW came in his life. I wanted so badly to hear him admit that he allowed OW to cloud his decision, in so many words, he did admit this, but it didn't make me feel any better because he wasn't going to do anything to change it.
HM, I do believe that they are not capable of the love we deserve right now. I guess I still hope he could be capable in the future, but there's really no signs that I should have any reason to still hope for this.
