One day at a time

[sadhearted]

My H has come across the last couple of days as more business like then ever before. Very sad. I just don't know what to make of anything anymore.

He started a new job yesterday. Today I got an email from him wanting me to confirm everyone's b days and such for insurance I guess. I was on the list as well. Which was nice to see and could sound good but it could also be he's just being responsible. Since at the moment I still don't have a job.

I seem to be having a really hard time of completely letting go. I mean I thought I had and I prayed and put it in God's hands but I still worry like crazy. Guess I just haven't learned how to just let go.

Still very sad today. And last night I said I was going to try to be more upbeat. So far haven't figured out how. Course I think it's a combination of things. This, my oldest is sick. my H's grandma is in the hospital and there for awhile yesterday didn't know if she was going to last much longer. Last I heard I think she was doing some better but who knows. She's had 2 surgeries in the last 3 months she's 89 and was ready to go yesterday. Just all very sad.