I know that what you are feeling is probably anything but 'wonderful.' Having been on these boards for some time with you, and reading your posts over time... knowing where you were and where you are now... leaves me with quite a bittersweet feeling on your behalf.
I suppose the one thing you said that could really make me cry, is that you now know, no matter what comes, you will be okay. There is no feeling in the world like it. None.