Mid thirties.

I don't pretend to have any definite knowledge of whether relationship issues are mainly, or at all, involved. All I know is that my attitude and behavior are the only things I have direct control over, so control them I will in order to yield improvements in my life. These improvements may include an improved attitude and attraction on her part. Or they might not. Either way, they're worth doing.

She told me, again, that she's cranky because she's not feeling well, not because I'm doing anything to make her cranky. (Maybe she senses that I need reassurance? I should do something about that...) Also, she didn't want to be touched, but she did want to touch me. Seems like a good sign to me.


a fine and enviable madness, this delusion that all questions have answers, and nothing is beyond the reach of a strong left arm.