~Thank you all for the kind words.... they do keep me very encouraged!!

I must say I AM VERY proud of me and not 2nd guessing myself either BND! ;\) I have been better at not backing down and letting him have his way all the time. He does hear what I say and I need to keep doing this..... I will post more later on this topic. This part of my self that I had put away for good for so many years really needed to come back and I actually get out what I need to say and I stand my ground even if his feathers get ruffled! ;\)

~Cog, I think I AM finally ready to post to Michelle... I do feel strong enough now and I do feel like he is in this 100% now. With everything that he has , that he is... he was in it before but 100% on HIS terms alone and now it really feels like a partnership , he even told me the other day he respects me and loves me very much !!!!!!!! IT WAS A STATEMENT HE WAS NOT WAITING FOR ME TO SAY ANYTHING BACK!
YEAH ,, FINALLY!!!!
( *and for that I am super Happy actually!!!!
Because now the bumps arent so hard to manage.)

Will post more later.. Thank you all for stopping by to cheer me on and keep me going. ( OT, BEING ME , BND, COG AND CHERISHHER AND EVERYONE ELSE WHO READS AND KEEPS ME IN THEIR THOUGHTS ~)

It really does help to know I have support and friends who care. \:\)
Love and God bless, ~Ali.