Nikki-- Again, sorry I have been MIA. Just got my head cleared enough to check in. You have been working so hard--you should be proud of you! I am very hopeful that your H finds another job, the whole, actions-over-words thing. You taking the breath and giving the space / GALing seems to have done something positive.
I was touched to see your and OT's concern about me--I have to admit, I was (am, but not as much) a mess, but working at that.
Imagine seeing the poodle-hair EVERY DAY. Hearing her giant truck coming and going (the exhaust rattles the windows in my house). It sucks.
Did you get a chance to go over things with the L?
I can tell that you don't always feel it, but you have been so strong through this whole ride. Believe it. Keep searching in your heart for what you really want. If you have read the book The Secret, you can draw things to you by believing, acting as if you already have your desires. You are such a good person, and you know how you deserve to be treated. One of the things I am hoping that my H discovers is that we all teach others how we want to be treated--what we are willing to put up with, give out, set boundaries. But no one will know what yours are without you expressing them.
You are doing such good work--know that we are pulling for you!
