I get what you're saying--I've felt a lot of the same emotions...for a long time I felt like H just did whatever he wanted and sat back to watch me carry the weight of all this and pick up the pieces to boot.
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I just wonder what's going to happen when he comes back to "real life." I don't know that he's looked at himself at all or if he ever will as far as his "issues" may be concerned. I'm afraid that he's not truly happy w/ himself either and that no one would ever be able to *make* him happy until he gets there. That could, obviously, be said about me too.
This is an entirely valid concern--I think the main point to recognize though is that you can't look at it and focus on it this way, always waiting for the other shoe to drop. What you focus on expands--that's why it is vital to find yourself, your joy, your peace.
Saying that it's hard to do when you're so exhausted is the understatement of the century. But you can do hard things.
