Trying to make it work

[soul_mate]

Thanks for the responses retrouvalli sounds good just don't know how she would see it at this point.

Well right now I am on a big roller coaster and am starting to feel lost. Over the past couple months the W does not want to spend much time with me at all. She go's to bed early and watches taped TV shows at night and works during the day. I know she works hard and most of the time is too tired to hang out with me after work and putting the kids to bed. I have talked with her a couple times, but she just gets defensive. I suggested planning a drink night etc. Her response is I don't want to plan anything why don't we just do it. That is fine, but we never do it. I have been keeping a journal over the past 4 months and I am not just blowing things out of poportion.

Now I feel I cannot talk to her and I know I will eventually start distancing myself from her. Now I am extra frustrated over what has happened the past 2 weekends.

She went out the past 2 weekends, which is fine because she has not went out much at all over the past couple months. She stayed out extremely late 5AM, which ruins the next day since she is either tired or sleeping so I have the kids to myself. I trust her and am 99% sure she is not cheating or anything so that is not a problem. My problem is that she can find the time to party for 12 hours, but she can't find 5 minutes to spend with me. This has me furious and I feel that I can't even talk about it. Then to top all this off she tells me she wants to move so she will not have to work and spend her time with our kids. I am onboard with this but just a week before she was wanting to buy a luxry car since "She works hard and deserves it" she just seems to be all over the place. Thanks for letting me rant any advice would be appreciated.