Why do these things happen VII

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So is my mind confused or am I normal in giving up worrying about it, but not giving up that it can still have a happy ending. That is what I am thinking and hoping, just sounds weird in my own head.

In other words I am going to stop waiting for the phone call or a knock on the door. I am going to get a life, finally. I will do what I want when I want and no longer worry about it, which is what I have been doing so far. Still not going to date, not ready for that, and would be unfair to whoever that lady may be.