Back to post for the first time in a couple weeks. Just back Saturday from 2wk family vacation.
Let me back up--as we were about to leave, my W had a fight/blowup with her EA 24yo personal trainer (never became PA). She was an emotional wreck before leaving--very anxious, not sleeping--had to get a sedative from my partner on July 4 to calm down.
Things have been up/down since then. Strangely, the night before we left she tells me, "I want you to know that a couple months ago, my friends got me a vibrator. I've used it a few times and it really works, but I know I should be having sex with my husband instead of using it." Now I would have given anything for a hug and kiss for months suddenly she's saying this. She packed it for the trip and asked if I was taking anything (we use condoms as BC). I had obviously not expected a need, but this raised my hopes.
The first week we went to DisneyWorld--stressful anytime, but probably more so in this circumstance. It was mostly good, but had one big fight on 5th day there--she said (while in line), "I can't live like this anymore. You've controlled me for the past 13 years". I replied, "Does this mean you want to see a lawyer when we get home?" The rest of day was good and talked that night. She did not want to see a lawyer, but just wanted stress to go away.
Last week was spent at the beach with her family (always sure to produce stress). She had told them about EA prior to leaving--her father told her "I would have told you to hit the street". Her mother was slightly more tactful, but also negative. Week seemed to go really well except I had my hopes of physical contact raised too high. Nothing happened except hearing that I felt that physical contact was too important and she said "Trainer and I got much closer without any touching". I told her that was a cruel thing to say. Ultimately it still was enjoyable, but not all that was hoped for.
I know she used her "toy" at least two times on trip--make a comment about it the second time and about got my head bit off. I will definitely keep mouth shut about it from now on.
She wants me to join the gym now. She hasn't wanted me there before. I know mostly it is to repair her reputation (lot of gossip in small town--so if I go there, it takes heat off her.)
Piecing is definitely harder than I thought it would be. I don't think we are "there" yet by any stretch, but hopefully are on our way.
I'll keep posting--I think I may change to Piecing though.
