H coming today, what do I do when he asks how I am

[MaxP]

Max, your post made me cry. seriously. or maybe its just that I'm deep in wallow mode. I just don't understand how H can be this person, how he can be doing this. Its like I meant nothing to him. we weren't just married, we were best friends. I don't deserve how he's treating me, and I don't understnad it. I need to stop focusing on him. I know that, but still, its hard. I need to not only seem to GAL, I need to do it, I need to move forward. and I feel pathetic that I even want him considering how he has treated me the last few months. but I do. and I need not to, and I don't want to not want him, so that really is a catch 22, isn't it? I don't know how they can be so callous, our spouses.

hope you are having an okay day. I spent today with my brit friend, btw, and wondered how you were doing.

morgan,

Your thoughts about your H echo mine. Her current attitude is as if we were never married or any more than just acquaintances. I move between being baffled, to insulted and then thinking I just don't want to see her because I find it too hard to understand.

My weekend was very good, although sad. My sister and her H were having a huge family celebration as they got married earlier in the year. At first I found it really hard to be amongst so many members of my family (lots of new babies, happy couples, etc), but it's great since they are all so supportive and kind to me. I truely have a wonderful family.

I have also had some really good news in that I was offered a new job at the end of last week. Much better pay, interesting work, etc. It could be quite stressful though, but it's time for a change and at least now I can look after myself with the extra income. So that's given me a big boost. Having lots of interviews has been stressful, particularly given all the other things that have been going on. I haven't slept much recently either, so am feeling really exhausted and drained. Taking it easy tonight in the hope I can sleep at last.

At least you get to go off on a girls weekend! That sounds quite good to me!

Take care,

Max