Living with my WAW 3

[SuperDad]

Theo and CVA,
Thanks for the support. Theo you are right that pursuing my own path, a path with heart, is critical. It is not at all clear to me that this will make any difference in our M, but it is critical to my happiness.

Right now I am feeling a bit blue, so it is hard to focus on anything. I think CVA is right that I need to recover from my travels over the weekend. Plus, I just talked to W and the kids in TX. They are all together and I am still in the office in Germany at 8 pm!

Not sure exactly what triggered it, but I am starting to mourn the loss of the family that I always wanted, but never really had. You know, loving wife, happy kids, all of us nurturing and supporting each other.

I so still want this, but just don't see that I will ever have it with my W. I know this is impatience speaking, but I really do question whether she is willing to do the hard work necessary to address her issues so that pursuing such an intimate relationship could be possible.

Anyway, tomorrow will be another day and probably a better one!

SD