Thanks for keeping up to date with my thread - sorry to hear about the trouble in your family
Just a dose of daily inspiration via an email I got this morning:
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You can shake off oppression or depression that may be trying to hinder your walk of faith with your Lord Jesus Christ by worshiping and praising your Lord. - - - - -
DO YOU KNOW GOD'S GREATNESS?
"Come, let us sing for joy to the Lord; let us shout aloud to the Rock of our salvation. Let us come before him with thanksgiving and extol him with music and song. For the Lord is the great God, the great King above all gods." Psalm 95:1-3
This Sunday, regardless of your present circumstances, praise the Lord. Are you going to worship God this Lord's Day?
Regardless of how you feel, go to church! Worship, sing and praise God for His love and faithfulness for your family.
Praise Him for His greatness. Today, keep your eyes on your Lord and not on your trials and tribulations. Put all your hope in God's awesome mighty power and in His amazing love.
"Let everything that has breath praise the Lord. Praise the Lord. Praise him for his acts of power; praise him for his surpassing greatness." Psalm 150:6,2
Never forget that praising the Lord defeats the enemy. Are you fighting discouragement and defeat? You can shake off oppression or depression that may be trying to hinder your walk of faith with your Lord Jesus Christ by worshiping and praising your Lord. This Sunday keep your eyes on the Lord's greatness, believing and trusting Him to heal and restore the love in your marriage, or touch your finances or solve your children's problems.
"He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted." Job 5:9
Have you come to the point in your spiritual walk, that you know God's greatness? Do you know in your heart that nothing is too hard for God to do?
"For you are great and do marvelous deeds; you alone are God." Psalm 86:10
You are not alone this Lord's day praying for your spouse's heart to be touched and changed by the power of the Holy Spirit. Today, there are so many spouses and parents who are praying for their prodigal spouses and children to repent and confess their sins, asking Jesus Christ to become Savior and Lord of their lives. Let us all pray that all prodigals will be obedient to the Lord's voice and reconcile with their spouses and families this very weekend!
"For nothing is impossible with God." Luke 1:37
Regarding the dancing thing = I've heard people say in some of my classes, that this is the best thing they're EVER done and they didn't know why they waited so long to take lessons.
People also seem to be "afraid" of learning to dance in front of others - your H might be the same in this regard?
What I do know is that once someone has actually been to dance lessons, they become a different person (in a good way) so I guess the "trick" here would be to somehow get your husband TO the water & make hime drink also
Do you ever get to watch "Strictly Come Dancing" on TV where you are - I don't have TV anymore (remember I watched too much TV when my wife was around so I discontinued the service after she left ) - but perhaps if you could gauge your husband's reactions to watching some ballroom/latin competitions?
Ask Dana (galing) about dancing - it's one of the best Mood-Lifters you can find out there
CM your welcome. Maybe you are right about H being selfconscious dancing. but he isn't a bad dancer at all, he's a pretty good dancer. As for the dancing shows on tv, well those kinds of shows he always changes the channel, especially ice skating. Unless it's the famous actors dancing on that reality show. He's checked that out once, but basically I know he's not interested in that type of thing whatsoever. I've never heard of that show you mentioned. I don't watch much tv either. Only when H does at night.
We do like sports. He's influenced me into that interest. That's part of the problem, I'm always open to his interests, but he never seems to be with mine. Maybe I need to be more forward about my interests or something. I don't know.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
Hi JenJam! Awesome to see you've beaten the D too! (I did read your sig right?)
I did do kick boxing years ago. At some point I want to start getting into shape again. I need to do something, but almost everything costs money.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
okay, I really screwed up again. I'm tired of doing this. H noticed me close a window, this one, and he thought I had been emailing someone. He said he's noticed me do it several times before. I didn't realize I was doing it that much if I was.
Well, I tried to explain that I'm embarrassed, and this is kinda like a diary for me and I don't want him to read it.
Basically we kinda had a quick low key argument about it. Then I went and played my music cause I really felt hurt/bad/sick. but that night he touched my arm and said he wasn't mad at me but wanted to make sure what was going on. I said, that I was glad he did. and later said thanks for saying that. I asked if we were okay this morning and he said yeah. I said sorry for screwing up so much and I was really trying. He said I didn't screw up if I'm just writing diary and there's nothing else going on.
I really need to stop getting on here(the internet) so much. I get obsessive sometimes. I think I really need to get a life. that's probably the biggest reason.
I did have some good things happen this weekend though. my pastors wife had a profound affect with her highbloodpressure, arthritis, and acid reflux. she also told me she's sleeping better too. I just gave them a case only 2 weeks ago! So very cool.
on a bad note, my cousins funeral is/was today. Of course it's in KS so I didn't make it, but I sent a card. I didn't even know what to write. What in the world do you tell parents that just lost there son after he killed someone and then committed suicide? How do you give any comfort? Especially where heaven is concerned? At the funeral, is the pastor going to say, he is now with God? oh, how incredibly hard it has to be for them to deal with this. I can't even imagine. Last year wouldn't even come close.
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
I really need to stop getting on here(the internet) so much. I get obsessive sometimes. I think I really need to get a life. that's probably the biggest reason.
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PROVERBS 3:7 TM
Are you hooked on logic?
One day a scientist asked an old preacher how come the Bible version of creation defied logic.
Smiling, he replied, "The reason God came from nowhere is because there wasn't anywhere for Him to come from. And coming from nowhere He stood on nothing, for there was nowhere for Him to stand. And standing on nothing He reached out where there was nowhere to reach, and caught something when there was nothing to catch. Then He hung that something on nothing and told it to stay there, and nobody said a word, because there wasn't anybody around to say anything. Then God said to Himself, 'That's good!'
"As humans we tend to try and figure things out in advance. But we're not nearly as smart as we think. Solomon said "Don't assume that you know it all," or you'll find out the hard way that you don't!
One Christian author writes: "I couldn't feel at peace. Unless I'd everything figured out.I became anxious, restless, nervous, worried and grouchy.similar to.a drug addict who needs a 'fix'; the.severity wasn't the same but the symptoms were. I was a Christian and supposedly walked by faith.I trusted Jesus for salvation, but in other areas I trusted myself."
Sound familiar?
Chronic worry proves you're trusting in yourself more than God. And worry, like any other sin, needs to be dealt with.Jeremiah said, "Mere mortals can't run their own lives.men and women don't have what it takes" (Jer 10:23 TM).
So stop trying to control every possible outcome! Life is much more peaceful when you decide to stand on God's Word and trust Him, regardless of circumstances!
SoulFood Reading: Acts 16-17, Matt 27:45-56, Ps 1, Pr 16:10-15
I hope that your cousin's family (and you) are doing ok. I know it's so hard... thinking that someone was in so much pain that they committed suicide instead of reaching out.
About the internet thing... I think you keep selling yourself short when you say you screwed up. There's nothing wrong with being online if it's something you enjoy. Now... if you were looking for men, on here obsessively all hours of the day/night, etc. that would be different. But it bothers me that you're having to feel like you screwed up every time you email someone, post here, etc. Does he feel like he screwed up every time you walk in the room and he's playing a video game?? My guess is that he's feeling a little insecure and maybe worried about an EA online.
If YOU agree that you're on too much then I can understand it - maybe you guys can set some time limits for both of you on the computer/internet, games, etc. What do you think??
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
thanks CM. I know I need to take that to heart. I'm EXACTLY that type of person! But I'm definitely better than I was!
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
Your right Nikki. It really isn't like I screwed up. I do agree that I can get obsessed and be on here too much. So I am trying to do better. Do more housework and be with the kids. I really should set a time for me to do stuff on the computer and then stick to it. Yes, I think H did think some EA was going on and that why he confronted me. I am really glad that he did that, because at least it shows there's communication. That was the biggest problem before.
This week has been a lot better. no crazy stuff has happened! the funeral for my cuz was Monday. I didn't go, almost glad because seeing everyone in such a shocked state would have been very emotional. I also found out that he was studying to be a police officer. The priest talked about how no one really knows what exactly happened except those who where present, so we have no idea if he came to God at the last minute or if he was even defending himself...I'm not sure we'll ever know 100%.
Thanks for checking in on me guys!
Me 33 H 34 S9 S3 M 6 yrs (2gether 11 yrs) EA/PA 1/2006 DB 5/2006 H wants D 6/2006 H wants ME 8/2006 H "said" PA/EA over 8/2006 H erased OW off phone! 2/2007
"It is far better 2 choose humility & change oneself, than 2 wait in vain trying 2 chang someone else."
thanks CM. I know I need to take that to heart. I'm EXACTLY that type of person! But I'm definitely better than I was!
My pleasure - thought that quote applied more to me though
I'm "learning" to trust the Heavenly Father more over my marriage being reconciled these days - less emphasis on ME trying to "somehow TWEAK" the situation