I am so sorry for your loss and so glad that dear Pilar didn't suffer.
My own dear grandmother passed away last March. She was . . . well, to me what Pilar was to you. I adored her. She made me feel so warm and loved and like a little girl again. I know what this loss is to you. I didn't grieve my grandmother's loss the way I thought I would. I was so grateful to have known her and been loved by her, and so grateful for her to have gone on and left the pain behind.
You are in my prayers.
Hugs, Sun
"Tell me what you plan to do with your one wild and precious life." Mary Oliver
