Yesterday after he 'decided' that he 'knew' how I was, I went upstairs and I just let him have it.

I said that he didn't know everything, that *I* am working on things and growing during this process, that he has some nerve to tell me who I am and who I will be and that I won't let him, my mom, his parents-NOBODY will get to define WHO I AM, except for ME!

He says "Well, I'm trying to keep an open mind." Phshh-right.

He admitted that he does like waking up and knowing that I am there next to him, but he still feels like he needs this time. He also said that he is trying to distance himself so that he can go thru with his decision.

He tried his best to not think that this Thursday is our 10 year. I asked him what he wanted to do about it and he said "well, we can get together-keep it low key, if you want." I said I was torn- I know we aren't "celebrating" but I felt that 10 years deserved an acknowledgement. Then he goes "Is it really 10 years? Or are we *starting* our 10th year?"
He even counted it out on his fingers. He tried VERY hard to spin it to NOT actually represent 10 years, but finally he had to chuckle and say "well, I tried."

Me-43
H-46
M 12 yrs 7/09
T 15
2 grown kids
bomb 7/05/07
H moved out 8/04/07
11/22/09 told him I quit;let's get ball rolling
Mid Dec- he isn't sure he wants D
End 2/2010-Starting to consider piecing