glad you understand what I was saying. I know I sounded a bit abrupt, but since you've been reading some of my posts, you get why. sucks, doesn't it? that tiny ray of hope that I know I try not to feel too strongly, but I do...it like a wee little seed that I tend and water and hope will grow. and it seems like each little seed lately gets washed away by me overwatering or was a dud to begin with (how's that for an analogy!)
I really wish you the best. and glad H understands. mine resents me for making him leave...he actually had the balls to tell me once that he could (For the sake of the kids, of course) happily live here with me till the day the d papers were signed. deluded, thy name is H. living with me seems to mean nothing to him, so until it does (and I sincerely hope it does someday), no way jose.
as for the MC, the same thing happened to us in a way. I got my own counselor and signed us up for a differnt MC. H was looking for his own counselor, although not that hard (he loves who he is, after all). we went thru several MC sessions before they ended (affair still active) so MC kept H as a client. I was happy because H really needs to stay in counseling, with or without me in the picture. If/when we can restart MC, it will not be with him.
in your case, if you are comfortable with your current C, go ahead and keep her. then look for a new MC when the time comes. If you would prefer someone else for your personal counselor, then keep her on hold for MC eventually.
good luck!
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
