Separated from WAW

[dlt1]

Thanks Atlas.
Well, met for dinner, brought some flowers for teh kitchen table which she appreciated. Kept it light during dinner, just asked her about her weekend, really focused on listening as much as possible. We were even laughing a few times. I generally felt she was trying, but had a sadness in her tone. She knocked me down when i was talking about the car and she asked if that was in both our names or just one. I kept my cool and let it slide off. She also mentioned plans she has made during what was to be our next trip together. They are flexible, so that will be my positive spin. Only 6 weeks away, so I accept that may be too soon to expect so much.
I suggested going for a walk, or getting ice cream, but she was not interested. Asked about taking the dogs for a walk (something i always refused to do unless absolutely neccesary), but she did not feel like it. As we're driving home she said I could come in for a beer, just one b/c she had to work early. As soon as we sat down she asked what I thought/felt about the R. I laid out the com probs, my 'seeing the light' explained how i focused on the work part of tasks/projects instead of the reward of doing them with her. Tried to give her my emotions, which seems to be my 180 for now. Asked her the same, she said she does not love me like she thinks she should love her H. How's that for double edged? Better than not loving me, but still not there. She keeps saying I'm a good guy and she does not want to hurt me. I said I'll be hurt if it does not work out, but she needs to focus on her and not worry about me right now. She also said she sucks at R's in general. We really had a good talk (if you can call it that), she believes in the fairy tale. It was hard not to disocunt that right away! But, I repeated what she said so she knew I heard her. Then suggested my own fairy tale that I see happening if we really reconnect. Let it go at that.
I felt like all thsi talking was getting me farther from her, while having a sense of closeness. I asked her to go to C again, and she agreed! Not with me, but will see the C on her own at first, then perhaps do some sessions together and others apart. I think this is more than i hoped for. I told her I appreciated this, and we will talk tonight about the schedule.
I really think a C will help her, and hopefully that will lead us back together. She is so distant and sad. She seems to want it to work, but just beleives it's too late, the love is gone. I'm scared at losing her. My actions did get positiv results, so think I'm on right track.
Atlas, read your thread and it does sound like we're in similar boats. Keep it positive one day at a time.
Thanks,