unfortunately no torture. unless it was from OW giving him grief, or himself giving him grief, because of the possible plans being delayed. The Garden in the Woods call was at 3, so he knew when my eta was by then (gps and all that). In fact, I think its almost funny that he came up with excuses to call me this weekend...the cute kids story, garden in the woods story. all were obviously because he wanted to know I made it to NYC, and then to find out my eta. he can't just say it. funny, and irritating at the same time.
or maybe I'm off and he just wanted to get away from the kids for a bit. sounds like K was especially whiney, so that could be.
the thing I am NOT going to do is call his mom and chat with her, then hint around to find out what time he got home last night. and I'm going to make some plans for this weekend so I'm too busy to dwell on what his plans might be. well, dwell much, anyway. thinking maybe since its opening week this week at saratoga, maybe we'll go on sunday.
a huge proud I forgot to share...I borrowed his GPS for the ride, and did not look thru his favorite places to find her address. nope, didn't do it. and I know its there (they've driven together on business trips, I'm sure they've started at her place before).
I just don't know what is wrong with me sometimes. seriously. It all just feels like the end, and I still so don't want it to be. I don't. I want us to find this magical way to work out. I want him to finally see the light. but every time it feels like he is pulling toward me, I feel the door slam the next day.
M-41 H-38 M-10 years, T-14 years Bomb-PA 3/19/07 Separated-6/7/07 Piecing/h back home 5/08 S-6 S-4 D-4
"Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says, 'I'll try again tomorrow.'"
