Thanks RJ. It was hard, but not as hard as I thought. I didn't even cry... which tells me that it was time to write it, that I'm not just saying those words, they are my actuall feelings. It's not a threat and I'm expecting nothing in return.
And HS, I think H more than me got complacent. I think that he just expects me to come over on the weekends and that when we are out and about, he doesn't need to hold my hand or kiss me goodbye. Well, too bad. If you are working on a marriage and you'll kiss me goodbye in the driveway, then kiss me goodbye in a lobby.
H drove us to the airport. He asked me if I wanted to do the long term or what. I said, it didn't matter he could drive us if he liked. Which means he'll be picking me up on Sunday too. He gave me a hug goodbye after we got our boarding passes. I'm not sure what I think about it. I wanted to hold on forever, but just returned a quick hug. He didn't mention the letter, maybe the hug was his way of saying "I'm trying". But part of me still doesn't want to do this again. And yes, I've read Michelles article "too little, too late". I know that's how I feel and knowing H"s track record, his too little will turn into nothing at all again, only for me to have to write another letter to get "too little" again. So on one hand I think when I get back maybe he gets another chance. BUt on the other hand maybe he's had enough chances. I guess that's why I have a week to think.
I got to my parents house and was talking to my mom and dad about the email and everything. My mom told me this morning that when they went to bed, my dad told her that it was about time that I told H to sh-t or get off the pot. My dad never steps into my business ( mom on the other hand........) so that was an eye opener for me too.
We'll see what happens. Right now, I'm enjoying time with my brother, SIL, 6 yr old neice and the 5month old triplets. They are soooo cute. We go shopping tomorrow and then my grandparents arrive and we head to the cabin for some hiking, horseback riding and more shopping.
I finished the Harry potter book. The spoiler H told me isn't how it really ends. But even so, at the time he said it, he believed it was the real ending and still ruined a lot.
The book was FABULOUS though. Read it while walking through the airport, the airplane ride from take off to landing and while deboarding, walking in the airport, the train, the escalator.... I even saw the sun come up this morning before finally giving up and going to bed. I finished the last 50 pages this morning!!!
