So much for the not much crying...H called and wanted to come by to pick up a few things. I did good at first, but then my emotions got the best of me. Last week, I starting to wonder if I even loved my H anymore...now I know I still do. It killed me to see him especially when he jokes around with me like we always did. We had bought a baby bed awhile back when we were trying to get pregnant. He asked about something else that was right next to it, so I said well you might as well take that too. Neither of us could hold it back. We both had tears in our eyes...this is so hard knowing that the main reason that we aren't together is because we couldn't have a baby.
This how the conversation about the D papers went.. H: Did you sign the papers? M: No, not yet. H: Why not, you were on me to get those done? M: I will, I just haven't yet. Do you want me to mail them you or attorney? H: To the attorney and then within 30 days, we will have a court date that I have to go and it will all be wrapped up.
It was fine and civil except for his snide remark about me rushing him. He can think whatever he wants. Yes, he probably does feel like he is being forced into finishing the divorce, but if he had any doubts or concerns he would have moved away from OW a long time ago. For my own well-being, I have to sign the papers and move on with my life. I have to get out of this mess for my own sanity. I am getting more than my fair share...I just have to accept that this is the best. He's broken and he hurt me and he is not the man that I married. I need to make sure that I remember that...just trying to stay strong.
Last edited by hopeless11; 07/23/0712:00 AM.
M:28, D finalized: 8/28/07 Current Thread
"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile."
