One day at a time

[sadhearted]

See I want it to stop but I still care about how it ends. I haven't reached an I don't care just end it one way or another stage. I'm frustrated, saddened, hurt but still care alot. I still hear from people that I need to just give it time. That they don't feel he's truly done because of various things. It's nice to hear and gives me hope but no one KNOWS what will happen. I keep trying to tell myself time and patience. Some days that works others not so much.

Right now I just want to curl up somewhere and cry my eyes out. I can't at the moment because my children are still up and running around. So I'm holding it in. Doubt it'll last after their in their rooms in about 10 minutes.