Crap, I'm having a BAD day. I'm pretty sure I'm just PMS'ing (good excuse), but I'm having a horrible time w/ the boys. I just have absolutely no patience.
Then I think about H and, no matter how well things are going, sometimes I just want to rail at him!! I don't expect to rehash our sitch w/ him, but sometimes it just p*sses me off how to him nothing ever happened. Sometimes the things he said & did during the D sitch creep back in and it just infuriates me that I just have to suck it up & move on b/c now things are hunky dory for him.
I know, I know, I'm whining, but I'm just having "one of those days." Just venting. Getting it all out.
You know, he even told me at one point that he had consulted w/ a D lawyer and then we found out I was pregnant w/ S1 (our 3rd boy). He was a very nice surprise, we'll say. Anyway, then during the D sitch, he said that he just KNEW that I got pregnant w/ him on one of our "ok, hurry up & get it over w/" sex nights and whenever he looked at S1 that's what he thought about. How sh*tty is that??? I know he doesn't feel that way anymore, but it's crap like that that creeps back in at times.
The fact that, back then, he told me it didn't bother him one bit thinking of me w/ someone else. Now, he "misses me to pieces" and I have to think what about all the crap you put me through?
Ok, I'm done. Got it all out. I'm just going to put the boys to bed early tonight and tomorrow will be better
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
