That's the crazy thing. H sees it as wrong, says he feels guilty about it and yet is convinced that given the same circumstances and feelings about our M, he'd do it again. Maybe just fear of his own weakness and wanting to prevent it in the future by not ever being in that same situation?? I guess I'm just trying so hard to understand the justification process and what's going on in his brain.
Dealing with my own fear that maybe I just would never be able to get over this whole thing and forgive him. So, what's the point? I think the longer it goes on, the farther away I move. Probably just the "feeling of the day"..
